Because of opinions expressed in several of my books, the U.S. Immigration and Naturalization Service ordered me deported in October of 1985. The government invoked the 1952 McCarran-Walter Immigration and Nationality Act, accusing me of "being against the good order and happiness of the United States." I was represented by The Center for Constitutional Rights, and many writers, artists, public officials, academics, students, union and religious people rallied to my cause. In August of 1989, I won a landmark First Amendment case. This book is an essay about the almost five-year experience of being shunned by the country of my birth; it addresses the emotional as well as legal aspects of the case.